April 17, 2013

Goodybe Girl


  Goodbye Girl
    -By David A. Gates  

All your life you've waited for love to come and stay
And now that I have found you, you must not slip away
I know it's hard believin' the words you've heard before
But darlin' you must trust them just once more... 'cause baby
Goodbye doesn't mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye doesn't mean
We'll never be together again
If you wake up and I'm not there, I won't be long away
'cause the things you do my goodbye girl
Will bring me back to you.

I know you've been taken, afraid to hurt again
You fight the love you feel for me instead of givin' in
But I can wait forever, a-helpin' you to see
That I was meant for you and you for me
...so remember

Goodbye doesn't mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye doesn't mean
We'll never be together again
Though we may be so far apart you still will have my heart
So forget your past my goodbye girl
'cause now you're home at last.

I'm having such a rough day.... I miss Willow so much.  I would do anything for just one more Willow hug.  Out of all the photos I have of Willow and although I didn't think much of this one when I took it, I think it might be my favorite.  I will never forget the way she looked at me, willing me to stay that day.  She didn't want me to leave...  and I knew she loved me. I probably need to stop listening to sad songs that make me think of her... that make me cry.  But the lyrics to this song are so fitting...

So forget your past my goodbye girl

'cause now you're home at last.

15 comments:

  1. My heart breaks for you! Those that love the most deeply also feel the pain of loss most deeply. There is no quick fix but I hope you take some comfort in knowing just how blessed you were in finding Willow - and how very, very blessed Willow was in finding someone as special and loving as you! Continued prayers to heal your heart...

    Mary in CA

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    1. I second this .. very well said and I couldn't agree more! You're in our prayers!

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  2. I love this so much.
    I love the braid. I love the relationship you shared with her.

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  3. Beautiful words Shana, one day your broken heart will heal. Sending you hugs from across the big "pond".

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  4. ALL of her images are beautiful!!! It is hard to pick a favorite !! She knew more true love in the little time she had with you than most people/animals know in a lifetime!!!!

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  5. Your tears for Willow will never stop flowing they are the reminder of a beautiful soul so embrace the tears with every day that passes and remember how lucky you were to have been given that special Willow hug. That feeling you had when she did tha
    Hug was what she wants you to have

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  6. sending hugs your way.. I love this photo of Willow.. so majestic.. and so so pretty.. she will forever be in your heart..xo

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  7. I know that sometimes it feels as if getting over the gut wrenching sorrow might be somehow 'disrespectful' to your precious lost friend . . . as if beginning to feel better might be just too much like beginning to forget. Sometimes holding on to the agony is the way we feel connected to the departed. We don't want to be caught by them, as they peer down from heaven, feeling light hearted or optimistic . . . we want them to know - forever - that the loss of their physical presence has devestated us! You don't want Willow to doubt the depth of your devotion to her. And right now I can tell you have doubts.

    But Shana ~ she doesn't doubt you. She knows. She knows that through every grizzly moment of her decline and fall, that you spared NO expense, and left NO rock or contact or procedure or medicine unturned, uncalled or untried. She knows how hard you tried and how hard you have cried!

    Feeling better in the days to come won't hurt her feelings, or betray your bond. My mom told me once: "for Tex it is over, his suffering is over, he has moved on. He never has to go through that again - why do you keep re-living it? Why do you keep putting his memory through that?" . . . and that was the day I stopped grieving, so that I would stop disrespecting his memory and start looking forward to our inevitable reunion.

    I will pray that day comes soon for you, the day you realize that SHE KNOWS YOU DID NOT LET HER DOWN.

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  8. Melissa Sams4/20/13, 4:19 PM

    Very sweet! You were both so lucky to have found each other. You will see her again!

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  9. she is home indeed, but in your heart she will always have that little place ... she left hoofprints on your heart and your soul ... just remember : in life everything happens for a reason ... maybe too soon to find out what the reason of your meeting and her leaving is but time will tell ...
    this was your and her destin ...

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  10. Sending you a hug..... you will see her again.... xoxo

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  11. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zCdZwitrNoY
    This might help you some. It makes me cry but I hope it helps some. Sending prayers to you! always!

    Lindsey

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  12. I really miss your writing, come here often to check. If this blog makes you sad, I hope you will start another. Goodbye sweet Willow, we all miss you, your mama most of all. xo

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  13. I drove by some horses today and they reminded me of you and your horses. Then I thought I would check your blog to see if you have written here lately and once again, I got all teary-eyed reading...

    Looking at sweet Willow's pic, sure makes me wish that this was her in the present.
    Memories of Willow are tucked away in your heart.. I don't think you will ever stop missing her, but find some comfort knowing she is at peace and roaming free of pain..

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  14. Tears are therapy Shana. If you don't grieve for Willow you will keep that sad feeling inside of you always. You can't heal without grieving. I know this from losing a child at birth. It will take time and it needs to be your decision how long it is. It's human nature to grieve for a loss. When I read your post, I cried too because I miss Willow too. Sending you a Big Hug.

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