March 10, 2013

BROKEN

The plate in Willow's leg is broken... she has a high fever, she is suffering....   I can't believe they are telling me they have to put her down!!!  Noooo.... NOOOOOO.... this can't end this way....  I can barely type through my tears... She's broken, I'm broken...  it should not end this way. This was supposed to be a beautiful story with a beautiful ending.  Spring isn't here, this can't happen now.... I pleaded with Dr. Ruggles, but they all agree that this is the humane thing to do. Nothing can be done for her... her elbow is shattered now... she wouldn't survive months being hoisted in a sling... she is even in too much pain to wait for me to get there... I can't even say goodbye!!!    They have her sedated now but she is still alive... please pray for her... please pray that she goes peacefully and that she KNOWS I love her and didn't send her away...

Martha called... "Do you want her tail, Shana?"   Do I want her tail??  Omg...  and do I want her to be cremated??  How can I survive this...  I need her.  I still need you, Willow.   Things are always supposed to end on a good note with horses right, not like this.. not in pain, not in sorrow... I don't want my last memory of her to be her leaving in me a trailer through my tears...

Martha will stay with her the whole time...  Michael is already on his way home... he was crying too. I asked Martha to please put those three little braids in her mane for me... She needs her three little braids...  To hug her like I did, to kiss on her the right side of her neck... to scratch her under her mane on the left side.... to kiss her on the cheek.  Then Martha held the phone so I could talk to her...  I tried so hard to be strong for her and not to cry... just for a minute...

"Willow....   my beauty.   Please know I love you.  I love you so much.  Thank you for loving me and for teaching me and trusting me.  I am so sorry it is ending this way... I know you are in pain, and I so wanted to walk in the sunshine with you this Spring.  But in Heaven, it's always Springtime... and you won't hurt any more.  Please, please wait for me in Heaven.  And until I get there, please continue to watch over me, because I need you to be my Angel....   I love you so much...  I love you, Willow..."

I just could not utter the words, "Good bye".  God, will I really see her again? I promised her I would...  Please tell me horses go to Heaven...

I am heartbroken.   I am broken.  I am broken.




369 comments:

  1. You may feel this way now (trust me I've been down this road before) it is hard, but you get through it and no horse is ever the last. Mourn because its healthy.

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  2. Oh, I am so, so, SO sorry to hear this.

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  3. I am so sorry. I don't know what else to say but I'm sorry. My heart is breaking just reading this post.

    Sharyn

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  4. Oh Shana, I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  5. Oh, no. This is such sad news. My eyes are in tears.
    The only good thing is that you have met each other and you have loved each other for a time. And there wa so much love.
    Big hugs, Shana. Be brave.

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  6. I don't even know what to say as I sit here crying for you. I've been silently watching Willow's story and hoping for the best. I know my comment will get lost in the many others that will follow, but I just had to say how truly sorry I am for your loss. I can't even imagine. I will pray for you and know that God will heal your broken heart in time.

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  7. I am crying reading this. But, you are right, she knows she's loved. God Bless You All.

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  8. I am so sorry to hear this :(

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  9. I am so sorry. She knows you loved her dearly. (((HUGE HUGS)))

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  10. I am so sorry. I will pray for you and for her. I know you are heart broken.

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  11. I have no words Shana. Just tears. Do keep some of her tail. Just some. She needs a tail in heaven. But you can have a momento made of her tail hair. And keep her with you always. I have a bracelet. I'm heartbroken. Truly heartbroken. :(

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  12. I am so sorry to hear this, my daughter and I have been following Willow and your story for a while and this is heartbreaking news xxx

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  13. So very very sorry Shana. I am thinking of you - I can't express how sad I am for you - be brave kind lady xx

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  14. I am so very sorry Shana! I am tears as I read this. I wish I could say something to help comfort you, she knows how much you loved her, don't ever doubt that!! Sending you so much Love!! <3

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  15. I am so sorry to hear this, my daughter and I have been following Willow and your story for a while and this is heartbreaking news xxx

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  16. I am so very sorry, Shana. Both of you gave each other 150% of love and support. I know Willow's with you now. Please take good care. Pamper yourself, and hug the good memories tight.

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  17. No words can express the sadness only words can express the love and Shana you shared your precious love for Willow with all of us and for that we are forever grateful Willow has been loved by Thousands and so are you !!!

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  18. I've been following Willow's story on your blog as a silent follower, but I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss! Willow knows that you love her, and I do believe that you will see her again!! She will be galloping around above feeling perfectly and waiting to give you the most special and beautiful ride you have ever had when you see her again. God bless you and your family at this time.

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  19. Oh dear Shana I am so sorry to read this terrible update. You did everything you could for her, please take comfort in that fact. Willow knows she was loved and even though she was in your life only briefly, she got what she desperately craved, unconditional love. You absolutely will be reunited with her someday and I believe she will always be with you.

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  20. I'm so sorry for your loss Shana. I am blinded with tears as I type this. I'll be praying for Willow and your family. <3

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  21. I am in tears Shana, I feel for your pain right now and wish I could make you feel better. Willow surely knows your love for her and will be watching over you until you meet again and run with her in the sunshine of the pretty heavenly pastures. I will pray that you are not going to hurt for too long. With sincere love, Gina

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  22. So very sorry to hear this Shana - Willow was a beautiful soul and it's obvious you loved her very much. I've had horses all my life and have seen many die and had had to put some down and it's always hard, but such is the nature of having horses unfortunately. You were able to do more for Willow than some might have been been able to, so please take comfort in knowing you did all you could. Hugs and prayers for peace.
    Kristin

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  23. Shana, I cannot imagine your pain in saying goodbye. Those of us who have lost know its a journey but never an ending. Much love to you today and through the rest of your journey. xoxo. ~Stacy

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  24. Oh Shana, I am so so sorry. I'm certain Willow knows how much you and your family loved her. Be kind to yourself during this sad time.

    janet

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  25. She was an absolute beauty. I'm so sorry. My heart is broken for you.

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  26. SO sorry to hear. Take heart, you did everything humanly possible for her. Even though she suffered through the abuse, you showed her the tenderness and beauty of life at the end. She knows you loved her and she loved you too, unconditionally. You did all the right things, you did your best, you gave her love...she knows.

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  27. so heartbreaking...I am so so sorry for you loss {{{hugs}}}

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  28. I am so sorry for Willow, you, and your family. She knows that she was loved.

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  29. I am so sorry to hear of your loss...am sitting here in tears reading of Willow's passing. I truly believe she will be your angel looking out for you from above.
    Chantal x

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  30. :,( this really broke me to tears.

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  31. There's a special place in heaven for all creatures. You will have her in your heart forever until you see her again. My heart breaks for you and your family. Much love from a stranger who is following your story and is feeling your pain.

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  32. There is NO DOUBT that horses go to heaven.

    Prayers for all of you.

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  33. I am so sorry for Willow, you, and your family. She knows that she was loved.

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  34. OMG:) Shana; I am crying right now and with you; I have no words .... am just reviving the past ... and know very well what you are going through ... so sorry for you and for Willow but I do strongly believe that she knows she was loved by you and all those who took care of her ... you will meet again ... one day ... hugs hugs hugs ... Anaïs Belgium Europe

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  35. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss, Shana. I hope you know you have given Willow more love and happiness in the few weeks you were together than she probably had her entire life. She will always be with you.

    “If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you.”
    ― A.A. Milne

    Hugs,
    Rae

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    1. I could not say it any better! Hugs and love Shana

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  36. My heart is shattering reading this - I'm in tears - remember that you showed Willow the kindness and love and joy that she so needed, you made her life meaningful. You made her happy.

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  37. I've raised horses my whole life, and like you, have had some very painful goodbyes. I can only tell you that I know without a doubt - that horses go to heaven..and our sweet babies will be waiting to greet us on the other side. Thinking of you! :(.

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  38. I can't even find words to say how sorry I am for what you are going through. Praying that God, all the Angels & Saints surround you and Willow with their purest white light bringing comfort and protection to you always!!

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  39. Shana, I am SO very sorry. My heart breaks for you. I am praying for comfort and peace for both you and Willow. I have read about your journey with Willow and followed your blog and I am in tears right now thinking of what you are going through. God bless you and your family.

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  40. I hold it true, whate'er befall;
    I feel it, when I sorrow most;
    'Tis better to have loved and lost
    Than never to have loved at all.

    I am so sorry for you loss but I truly believe that Willow was brought to you and your family for a reason. She has impacted all of your lives. And going forward she will always be with you. Gallop through the rich green pastures Willow, and watch over the family who loved you so much.

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  41. Please do not allow others harsh words one moment in your head. You took her in and fed her with your loving hands. You held her beautiful neck and heard her heart beat. A heart that was broken from some other person who wasn't worthy of her majestic spirit. It takes a special person to do what you did. I call them earth angels. Blessings to you dear lady...I know this journey will be a difficult one. A trail traveled with a heavy heart. When you are awaiting spring to come and see those baby sprouts of grass bursting through the dirt, know that you will always have her walking by your side. She will see through your eyes and feel through your heart the beauty of what God gave us. Thank you for sharing such an intimate story of love.

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  42. My heart is breaking for you! You have allowed Willow to become "our" horse as well, and I personally want to thank you for that. What a beautiful love story. God bless her and you.

    Heather M

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  43. My heart breaks for you while I'm ready this <3 I'm so sorry for your loss <3

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  44. I cry with you and for Willow.

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  45. I am sitting here crying right along with you, first time I have posted and I feel your pain. I am so sorry for what you are going through. She has always felt loved by you I can tell. May you find peace in the great memories

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  46. Leslie C Simpson3/10/13, 10:25 AM

    Revelation 19:11 - And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him [was] called Faithful and True........ There is more to this passage, however; if this is not proof of horses going to heaven I don't know what is. Special prayers and love to you on this sad day. I have enjoyed your story of Willow and will truly miss her. I feel like she has become such a story of hope and encouragement for so many of us. Blessings to you on this day.

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    1. AMEN Leslie!! She shall see her again.

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  47. I am so sorry for your loss - I have been following your journey from over here in the UK and as a fellow horse-owner, I know how much we love our horses. It's an unspoken bond that people who don't know horses, can't understand. But I think you have done the right thing. She had had enough. She knew you loved her, but even with your love she couldn't take that amount of pain. She will be the newest star in the sky. When you look up, she will be there, watching over you, just as you watched over her. Hugs to you from afar.

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  48. I am sorry about Willow. She will run free in fields in heaven with a many other horses waiting for their owners to come join them. God bless you and your family. Willow will be in your heart forever.

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  49. <3 You have given that sweet baby so so so much. Love, attention, hope, care, happiness, etc. YOU were her happy ending! <3 I pray for comfort for you and your family and pray you'll continue to fight for amazing animals like her <3 Thank you for sharing so much of your personal journey w/ us!

    Leigh S

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  50. Shana (and family), of course horses go to heaven ... ALL gentle souls do! I found this poem in hopes that it will bring you even the smallest bit of comfort in this hard time.

    Willow will always have a place in my heart. xoxo ~Amy Weir (Phoenix, AZ)

    Look for me in Rainbows
    Time for me to go now, I won't say goodbye;
    Look for me in rainbows, way up in the sky.
    In the morning sunrise when all the world is new,
    Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.

    Time for me to leave you, I won't say goodbye;
    Look for me in rainbows, high up in the sky.
    In the evening sunset, when all the world is through,
    Just look for me and love me, and I'll be close to you.

    It won't be forever, the day will come and then
    My loving arms will hold you, when we meet again.

    Time for us to part now, we won't say goodbye;
    Look for me in rainbows, shining in the sky.
    Every waking moment, and all your whole life through
    Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.

    Just wish me to be near you,
    And I'll be there with you.

    Music and lyrics: Conn Bernard (1990). Vicki Brown

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  51. So many of us are crying along with you right now. This did not end as any of us had hoped, but please remember that beautiful prancing horse from the recent video before she broke her leg. You gave her that. After such a low time she once again knew love and care and pride, thanks to you. My heart is breaking, but I am so glad to know there are brave people like you, who will take a chance to be hurt like you are right now, if it means a chance for a horse like Willow to know love again. Bless you.

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  52. Shana, I am so sorry. You did everything you could for Willow and are not to blame for this. I am sure that Willow knows you love her very much and I don't doubt one bit that she loves you just as much.

    You, your family, "Team Willow", and Willow herself are in my prayers ♥

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  53. I believe Horses are in heaven...all creatures will be redeemed and be as they were in the first Garden...she waits for you there with the wind in mane and tail....

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  54. Shana, tears are rolling down my cheeks as I imagine your pain. Of course she knows how much you love her. Hugs dear Shana and your wonderful team, you have touched so many people.

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  55. I am so sorry for your loss...i too have lost a horse...she was my baby and it was such a senseless way that she died


    I will never forget her as u will never forget willow
    It is devastating but believe me the pain will ease


    Take your time and grieve
    but then remember the good times

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  56. Oh Shana. I am so sorry. I started out a fan of your photo actions and started following Willow's story, reading each day with hope for a beautiful new story for her. My heart breaks for you, and I will be praying for your entire family as you mourn this terrible loss. Thank you for sharing Willow with us.

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  57. Oh, Shana -- I am so deeply sorry. What a terrible blow. I believe Willow is galloping happily through a spring-grass heaven, where you'll see her again one day.

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  58. I am so sorry you and Willow are going through this right now...this too shall pass...but her memories will live through the gorgeous photos you captured forever...

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  59. I'm so sorry :'( That's one of the toughest things to go through. Willow knows you love her & had no other choice.

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  60. I'm so sorry :'( That's one of the toughest things to go through. Willow knows you love her & had no other choice.

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  61. I am so deeply sad for you. This story makes me cry and I have been through this an understand the heartbreak you are feeling. Please know how many people are with you and sending you hugs and prayers from afar! And please, please know this: You are Willow's Angel. You saved her and gave her the best life anyone ever could have. She will be with Jesus in Heaven and you will see her again one day, and braid those three little braids she loves so much. She knows you love her. You shared a bond that is undeniable. You can't imagine your life without her, but can you imagine it if you never had each other? She is going peacefully and can finally be out of all the suffering and pain she has fought so valiantly through. She will be able to run in the most beautiful pastures, in Heaven. Willow will still be Queen. :) Find peace and comfort in knowing you will see her again. She is not broken, she never will be. xoxo

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  62. I just read your love story and I cried. I, as a child, was raised with horses and I love the smell, the constant love they give you. I just wanted to tell you how very sorry I am for your loss. It seemed that you did EVERYTHING right and loved her to the end and that is what you should remember. Prayers go out to you right now. God will be riding her across heaven with some beautiful little girl setting in front of him.

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  63. Oh my gosh, Shana, I cannot believe you are going through this! I am truly devestated for you and your sweet warrior Willow! She had a life time of happiness just knowing how much you loved and cared for her. There was nothing you wouldn't do to help her and she knew that and I am so happy she was able to feel that love, possibly for the first and only time in her life. Friesians are so very special and open their hearts to love like no other creatures. I know her body was broken and you did all you could possibly do to help her but her heart was full and strong and happy. And all because of you...

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  64. I am so sad for you. She will be missed by all of us.

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  65. My heart is broken for you and your family. I've gotten to know you through Willow's story and was cheering her on and praying for her recovery. I can tell how much Willow loves you and if she could, she would stay with you forever. You've given her the most kindness, love and happiness that she has known in a very, very, very long time. That is perhaps the greatest gift of all. My condolences to you and your family.

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  66. Dear Shana, I was just driving home and saw a dog that reminded me of my sweet Sheltie that died last fall and I was talking to my sister on the phone about the love and loyalty of pets and how hard it is to lose them. My daughter called to tell me about Willow and I rushed in the house to read your update. I am so sorry for your loss! You did everything humanly possible to save her life, please don't forget that in your grief! We will miss your posts, know that there are many of us out there who are thinking of you and praying for you, don't let the hurt of unkind people stand in the way.

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  67. Just this side of HEAVEN is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, she goes to Rainbow Bridge.

    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.

    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor.

    Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.

    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.

    Her bright eyes are intent.

    Her eager body quivers.

    Suddenly she begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, her legs carrying her faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your Velvet Willow finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again.

    The happy kisses rain upon your face; your girl, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together, and walk side by side into HEAVEN....

    Author unknown...

    Shana, my prayers for you and your family... so VERY saddened to read about the loss of Willow this morning, stay strong, she was a BEAUTY and is waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge... <3 Lorie Dillard Simpson

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  68. </3. So sorry for your loss. Take comfort in knowing Willow is no longer in pain. This to shall pass.

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  69. Oh darling im so sorry :( so sad

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  70. Bless your broken heart sweet girl. Bless your broken heart. I am so, so sorry. My heart aches for you and yes, you WILL see Willow again!!! And her spirit will be there with you this Spring in the sunshine and those fields of green grass. You will feel her and know she is still with you. Willow is at peace now and I will be praying that God will comfort you and bring you peace as well. Just remember, Willow would not want you to be sad for too long. I'm sure if she could speak to you now, she would be thanking you for taking such good care of her and for loving her. And she would tell you that she'll see you "in a little while". You WILL see her again one day!!! Know that there are so many of us that will be grieving with you from a distance. Sending prayers, love and hugs to you!

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  71. Oh Shana, I am so sorry to hear this. I have been following the story since you first met her. I know it's hard, horses have such a special place in the hearts of those who love them. And the amazing thing is that you've taught people so much what it really means to love a horse. If it didn't end the way it was supposed to, it did show people around the world the value of giving everything you have to help and animal who desperately needs it. And Willow did not leave this world broken - you loved her and you healed her heart. She left this world whole, with dignity. Perhaps her purpose was to teach people everywhere the value in every life, and as you said in a previous post, encourage people to donate to, care for, and love horses who really need it. Thousands of horses around the world will have been saved and loved because of Willow. And I think that's pretty amazing.

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  72. I grew up on a ranch and you sort of get used to being "realistic" about things. So I was thinking, maybe she should have been put down from the start. But then, I realized that in theory that would have saved you a lot of trouble, but you would have missed out on a lot of good memories too. As Dr. Seuss said "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." And I have to admit, just yesterday we had a bum lamb pass away that I'd been working with for the past month. He had a disease called White Muscle disease. It's a selenium/Vit E deficiency that causes extreme muscle weakness and even affects the heart and lungs. I think most people would have told me to put him down, but I just couldn't let him go without making an effort. He received injections and supplements. I bathed him twice and had to hold him up to eat each time. I think it was obvious he wouldn't recover but I just couldn't give up. God created us to be caretakers and sometimes it's so hard to lose one that has been entrusted to us.

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  73. I'm so sorry to hear this. But I have no doubt Willow knew how much you loved her. Sending hugs your way.

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  74. Know that for her last months of life you loved her more than she ever has been loved and that you did all you could to help her and save her, that is all that you could of done. Please know she will be at peace.

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  75. Shana, My heart is broken for you. I too am sobbing as I type. You are such an inspiration to us all in your passion for your family, photography and your sweet sweet Willow. We journeyed with you and loved her through your beautiful photos and words. She was so lucky to be in your loving care. Know that you did everything you possibly could for her. Please let God wrap his loving peaceful arms around you and hold you as he will with Willow. {{{hugs from Minnesota}}} Claudia Ross Tjornhom

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  76. Oh Shana...I too have been silently following your journey with Willow . You have brought me into your heart with your words and I am now feeling your heartbreak. I am more sorry than I can say. You shared an unconditional love with your Willow and I know that she felt you there with her in her last moments. Be still and listen for her song....she is there with you.

    ~ Kathy H

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  77. I am so very sorry. Willow has always felt your love, don't you worry about that. I'm praying for you!

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  78. my heart is breaking and the tears are flowing. thinking of you, your family, willow and all who were touched by her.

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  79. I am so, so profoundly sorry for your loss. Willow touched the hearts of many through your writing. I know your heart is broken but I hope you will continue to write. There are so many horses like Willow who need rescue, who need love. Willow's spirit will live on and the two of you can do a world of good to help others. Willow felt loved in her last days because of you. That is no small thing. I hope that fact will give you some small measure of comfort in the difficult days ahead.

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  80. Shana, I'm so sorry for your loss. I've followed your photography work as someone who wanted to learn more about my own photography work. What strikes me now is how much I've learned from you as a person. You share your sorrows and joys and you teach us why capturing memories of what brings us to our journey is important. I'm so sorry for your pain and hope that sharing it allows others to help you carry it. The connection you made and captured with this beautiful animal will remain with you and bring you to a place where you can again know of joy. In our most painful moments, there is love and joy. I believe as a photographer that we often capture memories so that when we are feeling the overwhelming sadness of loss, we can remember the joy we experienced. You have given that to so many through your work. I hope you can find it for yourself in the beautiful moments you captured. You have my heartfelt prayers.

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  81. Thank you for telling your story, and sharing. I don't even know you, but my heart breaks for you. Horses become a part of you, a part of who you are. You did everything possible for her. She is lucky to have found you. Have peace knowing she is cantering free in the long grass with no pain now. Horses know. She knows she was loved. Hugs to you.

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  82. Abby Caroline3/10/13, 10:34 AM

    Shana, I am crying my eyes out with you. There's nothing left to say...except this...you may not be able to make a difference in the lives of all the neglected and abused horses in the world, but do remember this: You made a huge difference in the life of this one darling girl, who needed it so much. Who needed to feel loved and wanted and like she had a purpose.

    You did that for her. Without you, she would have passed away lonely, unloved, in pain physically and in her heart as well.

    Even though it feels like it's killing you, I hope someday soon you will be able to look back on this whole journey and realize what you did for her.

    And it doesn't get a whole lot better than that.

    And I'm so sorry....I truly, truly am....

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  83. I am soooo sorry for all your pain and the sad ending. But Willow lived her last days surrounded by an incredible love that she was so worthy of and deserving. Her story brought people together, restored people's faith and encouraged many to consider animal rescue among many other things. Her live served a huge purpose and the two of you lived it together so beautifully and gracefully.

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  84. God Please wrap your Loving arms around Shana, her Family & Willow......Give Willow the Beautiful Peace forever that she found in Shana's loving care.......We ask on bended knee to give Shana the strength and Love she gave Willow in his last days here on earth......we know this was Your plan and that's why Willow found Shana. We know it will be difficult but grant them all peace knowing Willow will one day be waiting to see them again. AMEN

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  85. Susie Westervelt3/10/13, 10:35 AM

    I know your heart is broken right now, but I also know our beautiful animals know they are loved and that we do our very best for them. She knows, she knows. Take care and find peace in an awareness that you made all the right choices.

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  86. Physically, Willow may have been broken...but her heart was no longer broken...because of YOU, Shana.

    Please let that provide you with comfort today and in the days ahead.

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  87. I'm so very sorry for your loss, Shana. You and Willow were so lucky to have found each other. I'm sure she knows how much she was loved. My thoughts are with you.

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  88. I am so so sorry. This is heartbreaking news.

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  89. I am so so sorry. This is heartbreaking news.

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  90. Shana I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you, and I hope God gives you as much love and healing as only He can do. Please know I am praying, as we all are, through our tears for you and Willow. She knows how much you love her. She will always know that. I wish you comfort in your time of sorrow, Sherri & family

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  91. This is so unbelievable sad...my heart goes out to you. It was God's plan that you found Willow and made her yours...that at the end of her days she had someone who loved her and that she loved back. Someday you'll be together again...try to focus on that. I know how hard it is to lose a pet when you aren't there to say goodbye. I lost my sweet dog, Murphy, this past August when I was on vacation. As hard as it has been for me, I'm thankful that my sister was there with him...whispering in his ear and hugging him as he passed away. Try to take some comfort in knowing that Willow had someone with her and she felt loved.

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  92. Shana I'm really deeply sorry for your loss.. I've been watching your relationship with Willow, from the other side of the world and I can relate to your loss.. I've been the same way with my dogs, you feel like a part of you is dead.

    Some people don't realize that our pets are like our children and family. We adore them and would do anything for them.

    You may feel that you haven't done everything you could to save her, but trust me you have. Every little bit of love they receive from us is their remedy. I do too believe that we will meet them again. In a better place, with no illnesses or bad people.

    They will be there waiting for us to enjoy the best part of Heaven..

    My love and prayers are with you and your family, but of course with Willow as well.

    Melanie from Cyprus

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  93. "Unable are the Loved to die,
    for Love is Immortality"
    Emily Dickinson

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  94. Shana, I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart is breaking for you. You, Willow and your family are in my thoughts. ♥

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  95. I am so sorry for your loss - may God bring you peace during this sorrowful time.

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  96. I am so sorry for your loss. So many people feel so deeply for you, and are supporting you through love being sent your way.


    To those who have been so unforgiveably mean to write hateful things on her previous Willow blogs you should ALL BE ASHAMED. None of you have walked her journey and you have NO RIGHT to hurt her worse in this very sad time. How would you feel if you were her? For shame people for shame!

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  97. You did everything and more. Hold your head up high. Thank Lord for this gift of having her. God knew you were strong enough to be her rescuer. God picked you. He doesn't make mistakes. He knew when Willow's last day here would be. Now take comfort from family, friends and your other animals. Your daughter will watch you and learn from you. Sharing all of this with us has been such an unselfish act of kindness. Please don't regret that. You illustrated the saying "It is better to love and lost than to never loved at all."
    I believe the Bible speaks so much of horses in the future of Jesus' Second Coming so we can hope there are horses there. I hope to continue my riding there.
    Rev. 19:4, there is an army that follows Him riding on white horses, clothed in fine linen,
    Saying a prayer for you Brenda

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  98. My heart breaks for you. It is so hard to give up the animals that we love so much, but you have done everything you could for beautiful Willow and given her love and care that she obviously had not experienced prior to coming to you. I thank you for your caring and compassion, and for sharing this journey with us. I have so much enjoyed seeing your images of this amazingly beautiful creature. Praying for peace for you.

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  99. OH SHANA, I AM SOOO SORRY!! I know that you do not want to hear that right now! I wish we could be there, and bring Willow back for you. When you are ready, remember the love that you brought to her the last few months! She was able to move on from this life knowing that she had a human that LOVED HER, and showed her a better life! You did that for her! She is crossing over knowing that she was loved!

    Hugs,

    Janey

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  100. So so sad, I am so sorry for you loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  101. You did everything you could for her!! She knows that I am sure. I am so very, very sorry for your loss.

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  102. I am so so so sorry to hear this has happened. I've been crying readying your posts for the past two days and send you love and light to help try heal your poor broken heart. Take care of yourself at this time too xx Sarah

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  103. so sad. digital hugs are poor comparison.

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  104. I am very sorry for your loss. So sorry to hear this. We had to put our daughter's cat down this week and it was a very! difficult decision and one that I struggled (and still do) with for a long time. But many friends have pointed out that it takes courage to make that decision for them and as my mom told me, "they were trusted into our care and rely on us to make the decision in their best interest." So I hope you can draw comfort (like I'm trying to) from the fact that you are helping her not to suffer. Sending you good thoughts. Jennifer F.

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  105. Dear, dear Shana. My heart breaks for you. I feel this loss with you to my bones. I can't possibly understand how you feel, but I do know how it hurts ... to use every cell in your being trying to save that sweet soul with your love. I lost a sweet soul this week myself and it's still very raw while reading your sorrow. My beloved has been gone 6 days now and I don't know how it will ever be ok. But it will. I have to have the faith that it will. I know in my heart I did everything I could and she loved me until the end. I give this gift to you as well ... she loved you until the end and you did everything you could including sacrificing a huge piece of yourself. God Bless you, dear one. You made a difference in a sweet soul's life.

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  106. I'm so sorry for your lost :( I'm so sad and heartbroken I know this is not easy for you but Willow will be in a better place now and she will not hurt anymore...

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  107. So sorry for your loss! I too am typing through the tears so saddened as to how this ends. I've always wanted a horse and so I love following your posts. Willow was blessed to have been loved by you. God sent you to willow to save her and her spirit will live on. Godspeed willow!

    Amy K

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  108. Perhaps Willow picked the way her journey ended on purpose, because she knew it would just be too hard for you to do in person. Perhaps she was your protector in the process...?

    The Queen has done it her way...true to form. You gotta give her that one!

    Cry it all out, our friend. Willow deserves to be missed, and it's okay to be sad because of it. She will help that huge hole in your heart to scab over, but it will take a really long time for it to heal. Again, she deserves to be missed and loved...so take your time and feel better when it's right!

    Prayers from Arkansas!

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  109. I don't know if I can type through my tears, I will try. Horses do go to heaven Shana,and you will see sweet Willow again. My heart goes out to you and Michael. Stay strong. Take one minute at a time. Willow knew how much you loved her, look how she reacted to you. She will have no Pain in heaven but she takes your love with her. Be gentle to yourself my friend.

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  110. You fought so hard for her, Shana. She knows how much you love her. Don't sit and think of this time when you couldn't be with her, think of all the times you were there with her.

    I'm so sorry. You are in my thoughts!

    xoxox

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  111. Carol Daughtry3/10/13, 10:53 AM

    Tears are streaming down my face as I read this. My heart breaks for you and for Willow, the love you have for your Willow touches anyone with a loving heart, those with a cold heart perhaps not so much. Continue to dwell on the wonderful life you have given to Willow, that she knew how it felt to be truly loved since you have had her. She didn't die in the hell she lived in before, but loved beyond measure and Willow knew this. I am sure Willow doesn't want to leave you, but remember the beautiful moments you have given to her and the beautiful sparkle in her eye. Wrapping my arms around you in a warm hug of comfort. Thank you for sharing your love for Willow with us all. Blog away, we do care.

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  112. I am so, so, very sorry :( There are not words, but please know we share in your pain, and thank you for letting us get to know this beautiful soul.

    Please, take some of her tail hair..they can be made into beautiful bracelets and necklaces so you can have part of her with you always...

    I wish peace for you and your dear Willow....

    hugs from Canada

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  113. My heart is broken for you. I am so deeply sorry. I have no more words because I know there's nothing that can be spoken that will ease your pain at this time. I know it's difficult to think of keeping remnants but please do cause when you find peace with this you're gonna want some part of her. I've gone through this myself and walked this road so I am only speaking from experience. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  114. I live on the east coast and have a friend on the west coast. She sent me your link and I have been following Willows story. I am reading this with tears. I am so sorry for your lost. My heart is breaking for you even though we don't know one another. You have done all you can do for her and have gone above and beyond to try and help her get well. I was really hoping the outcome would be different. Rest in peace Willow.

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  115. SO sorry for your loss. I can't believe your story is ending this way. I pray for you, your family, and Willow. Your will to love another horse will again come one day and I hope you let us come along in that journey as well. {{hugs}}

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  116. Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

    Prayers with you
    jackie

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  117. I am sooo sorry for your loss. To quote the statement in another post "they were trusted into our care and rely on us to make the decision in their best interest." This is so true. I firmly believe that our pets go to heaven and are running pain free. Willow knew she had found a home and was loved, but she is also depending on you to make the best decision for her. It's so difficult to do, but unfortunately one of the worse things we have to do in life. We love our pets unconditionally and they love us back. My heart breaks for you. May you find peace in the knowledge that you did give Willow unconditional love and you gave her a home. She knows she was loved!

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  118. I am so sorry. So very sorry.

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  119. Dear, sweet, Shana, My heart is breaking for you and Willow, but know in your heart, you did everything you could for her, and gave her all your love. It meant so much for her to be loved by you. You let her have her beauty, and brilliance back. You gave her time to regain her throne and be admired again, but most of all, the love you surrounded her with meant everything to her. Anything I can do for you, and I do mean anything, just let me know. From one who knew & loved her in her youth, thank you, for rescuing her and giving her a loving home. I'm crying too much to write anything else. Praying for you.

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  120. I am so sorry. We have all felt your love for her. I'm just so sorry-

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  121. So, so, sorry. No words right now, just heartbroken, too.

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  122. I'm heart broken for you. I know the pain and sadness you are feeling. You and Willow are in my thoughts today. Goodbye beautiful, she can run free and painless now. You've done everything you can, and Willow knows that and knows the amount of love you have given her.

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  123. Oh darling girl, I am so so sorry.. you are amazing. So was Willow. with love from me and my family in London to you and yours - you have touched the hearts all over the world. Both of you and your family.

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  124. I am so sorry that it has ended this way for your sweet Willow, but in time you will see that this really was the only humane thing to be done. She is suffering and by letting her go, you are showing her just how much you love her.
    Be strong... I am thinking of you both today.

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  125. Oh my goodness I am crying with you and the tightness in my chest is nothing compared to what you are going through. I am praying for you and your family.

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  126. Jody Weymouth3/10/13, 11:02 AM

    Shana,
    Horses do go to heaven. They have so much love to give and are such beautiful creatures and that does not end. My heart goes out to you and your family and everyone who knew and loved Willow and to sweet Willow herslf. She does know how much you love her and will carry that with her. I imagine her beautiful, healthy, strong and happy. Maybe with a child who never had a chance to ride a horse or even touch a horse on her back spreading her love to those who were neglected themselves.

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  127. My heart breaks for you both...I wish you both peace.

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  128. Oh my goodness I am crying with you and the tightness in my chest is nothing compared to what you are going through. I am praying for you and your family.

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  129. I am so sorry...I know that that is the most inadequate think that I can say, but I am truly truly sorry.

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  130. I am crying for you. I am so very sorry Shana. There just are no words.

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  131. Some people just consider them pets or animals, but they really do become family. We share our hearts and a piece of our soul with them. Willow knows the love you have for her. just as I hope you know the love Willow has for you. A love like that is felt. No words are needed. Hugs to you and your family. I am so sorry. I will keep all of you in my prayers. And Willow, sweet Willow, thank you for the lessons you have taught to many people about second chances and real love.

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  132. I am so, so sorry. You did everything and more, and I'm sure Willow knew that and felt that from you. Hugs and prayers to you and your family.
    I think Brenda's comment above is very true, God picked you.

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  133. I am so sorry. You were her angel here on Earth.

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  134. I understand what pain you are going through. On August 4, 2011, we had to put our 27 year old Arabian mare down. She had a bout of colic and the vet said that all the money in the world would not fix her. Scarlett Fever had been a part of our lives since 1994, the year my daughter was born. Standing with the vet while she went through the process of putting her down was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in my entire life, but I can now look back and know that I did everything possible to make her life great and you can take comfort in that as well. You gave her love and care and saved her from a horrible existence. I urge you to keep her tail...we kept Scarlett's mane and tail, and I have made bracelets to honor her life, and we have a friend who is a potter and we have plans soon to make a Raku bowl or plate and put her hair in the design. (It's an amazing process, go look it up) You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers as you are going through this difficult time. Trust me, there will come a time when you will look back on the memories fondly and not with so much pain. I miss Scarlett deeply, but I know she will be waiting for me when I get to heaven, and we'll have more time together.

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  135. Shana, I am so sorry that your Willow has gone before ... her love will be with you always.

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  136. Sorry is not enough- you all have shown willow the love she deserved- unconditionally. And she will remain a part of your hearts forever. You are all in my prayers. So sad...
    Rebecca

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  137. I am so sad for you Shana. I am crying reading this. You will see you beloved horse again. And she passed over knowing someone cared about her again. She KNOWS that. She knows you loved her and that your were doing everything possible to help her. Nothing is anybody's fault her. (except for those that had neglected and abused her) Her poor old body just couldn't go any further. It was her time. She crossed over having had a few really good days. You said it yourself. There was that moment where she didn't seem sick anymore. That is a precious gift YOU gave to her. I understand you are very sad. Of course you are. But don't let that define this experience. You loved her and you gave her care when nobody else would. She will be there when it's your turn to cross over. I have no doubt that horse will be a guardian for you and your family from this day until the day you are with her again.

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  138. Heartbroken for you.
    Willow, without a doubt, felt the love and protection you brought into her life. The two of you had a beautiful friendship. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  139. Shana....while our hearts are broke as much as yours, please take comofort in knowing that you and your team of people did EVERYHTING you could for sweet Willow. There will always be doubters and haters....but by far the majority of us know how much and how deep your love is for Willow and that there is nothing that would have stopped you from getting her the best care possible. This is so sad to me because I can take myself back to a year and half ago with your story and it's a rewrite of another horse that was loved and cared for till beyond her last breath...and she happened to be in the state of Kentucky as well. May God bless you, thank you for pouring out your heart and for sharing this incredible journey with us, for keeping us updated, and most of all for loving that horse and giving her happiness for her short time. Romans 8:39 tells of God's love for us and that no depth, no height, nor anything else can seperate us from His love for us...and I believe that's what Willow has been feeling from you....nothing could seperate your love for her and I'm sure she would be happy to know that you will continue helping other horses...AND yes, there will be horses in Heaven!!! Prayers going out to you and your family.

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  140. I'm so sorry...I've been reading over the past month and I'm just so sad for you and your family and Willow and all of the people who have come together to heal her. Unfortunately, some things are too hard to overcome, try as she did...Willow fought as long as she could, it's time to let her rest as much as it hurts. I'm just so sorry, she is a beautiful horse.

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  141. With love.




    MY GRANDEST FOAL
    (author unknown)
    I'll lend you for a little while
    My grandest foal, He said.
    For you to love while she's alive
    And morn for when she's dead.
    It may be one or twenty years,
    Or days or months , you see.
    But, will you, till I take her back,
    Take care of her for me?
    She'll bring her charms to gladden you,
    And should her stay be brief,
    You'll have treasured memories
    As solace for your grief.
    I cannot promise she will stay,
    Since all from earth return.
    But, there are lessons taught on earth
    I want this foal to learn.
    I've looked the wide world over
    In my search for teachers true.
    And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
    With trust, I have selected you.
    Now will you give her your total love?
    Nor think the labor vain,
    Nor hate Me when I come
    To take her back again?
    I know you'll give her tenderness
    And love will bloom each day.
    And for the happiness you've known!
    Forever grateful stay.
    But should I come and call for her
    Much sooner than you'd planned
    You'll brave the bitter grief that comes
    And someday you'll understand
    For though I'll call her home to Me
    This promise to you I do make,
    For all the love and care you gave
    She'll wait for you, inside Heaven's Gate.

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  142. My heart is crying for you and your beautiful Willow. When I had to make the decision to put down my dog... my faithful companion... due to cancer, the vet tech told me it was the last loving thing I could do for him. Because of you, Willow knew what it was like to be loved unconditionally. And now, you've done the last loving thing you could do for her. I hope you're able to one day find comfort in knowing that. I'll continue lifting you up in prayer.

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  143. Oh Shana.......I am sooo sorry for you, your family and sweet Willow. Yes, her soul will still be with you, you can feel her,pet her, talk to her - she will be with you ALWAYS and no longer suffer.
    With warm hugs,
    Antonia ❤❤❤

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  144. Kathy Roberson3/10/13, 11:13 AM

    So very sorry for you all. Our beloved pets do go to Heaven. Hopefully you will find some comfort in knowing she is running free and happy in her new home...waiting for you.

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  145. I am so sorry for your loss. We recently lost our 10 year old dog to kidney failure after spending 6 months trying to find a diet that would prolong his life with no luck. My heart still aches everyday but I'm so thankful for the time we had and the wonderful memories that we will always have of him. Hold on to those memories and know you did everything you could right up until the end.

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  146. This sucks.

    I'm sorry that you and Willow had to go through this; I really hoped you would both get your Fairytale ending. Thank you for being the tenderness that Willow needed and deserved in her life. I am grateful that her story did not end before she was found, and loved, by you.

    I'm sure there is a bigger picture here; a life-lesson filled with little blessings that you will discover for years to come. But right now it just sucks. Go kick a fence and yell at the clouds for a bit. I plan to do the same; the 'zen' part can wait till tomorrow.

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  147. Erin in Ohio3/10/13, 11:19 AM

    I am so, so, sorry and shedding tears for people and a horse I've never met but who have touched my heart. Thanks to you, Willow was able to feel and share real love again and to not leave this life alone. She was even able to reunite with an old friend while she was in Lexington. Hopefully this gave her some closure, even though I know it isn't that way for you. I was waiting for the happy ending.....:(
    Maybe there is a bigger meaning in all of this, that your story with her has somehow touched others and will make a impact on this world, that all of this did impact others and has created happy endings for them.....

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  148. I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart is surely crying for you. God Bless you and your sweet Willow

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  149. Nicola from the UK3/10/13, 11:20 AM

    so dreadfully sad to hear your news, I'm crying and lost for words. Your story touched me and my family... sending you the biggest hug ever. xx

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  150. The decision to euthanize is such an incredibly hard decision to make. I feel bad that someone hurt you with their words about Willow. I have enjoyed following your posts of Willow and before that Paloma. As a horse lover, our own personal decisions of when enough is enough, is personal. Each person will have a different idea of when is when. It is hard to let go. I have had to put down several horses in my lifetime. I always would say, I wish it would just happen naturally, and then one evening it did, right before my eyes. My pony of 25+ years went from trotting in from the field and eating his grain to struggling to stand and move in a matter of 5 minutes. and then he was gone.... But, there is guilt and what if's in that road as well. I guess what I am trying to say is.... When you love, it hurts, no matter what. And you can never answer the what if's, and that includes the ppl that criticize you as well. PLEASE don't stop sharing your love for horses just because of someone evil. There will ALWAYS be evil ppl that don't know when to keep their opinions to themselves. BUT to encourage others to love and care and rescue a horse?! THAT is a wonderful gift. I rescued a horse from a killbuyer headed for Mexican slaughter just before Christmas. We cannot stop fighting for the horses! Please don't stop posting. Allow yourself time to heal, and please try to forgive. Your equine photographs are so inspiring and bring attention to a cause that DOES matter! Willow died knowing love and trust. You did well! (this is a duplicate, I posted on fb as well... I hope you get to read one of them! Don't give up, you have touched WAY to many lives to stop!)

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  151. Shana, this must be so hard for you, but please know that Willow's life DID have a happy ending. Even if it was for a short while, she was able to experience love and care from you and your family.

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  152. This last post made me cry with you. So sorry for your loss, I know it's incredibly difficult going through the loss of a pet you love so much. Please just skip right over any negative posts, it's the last thing you need right now. Obviously, those writing those things to you are very insensitive. They're the ones who are uncaring. Praying for you and your family during this time. God Bless.

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  153. :::hugs::: Saying goodbye to my equine loves was the hardest thing ever to do in ,y life, especially those I fought so hard to carry through injuries and illness and pain. I'm with you on this journey today, holding you and Willow in my prayers and love. You WILL see her again, and oh my goodness, what an amazing gift of LOVE you have given her in these last few months. Your hearts were brought together for a reason, and I know it was to show her what true, unconditional love really is. Your journey together will not end -- you will just have to walk for a little while on your own, but you will see her again.

    Braid that length of tail (my most precious memories of my darlings!) and wrap it around one of her shoes, and have that physical reminder always of a wonderful spiritual connection. :::more huge hugs:::

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  154. I too have been silently following your beautiful story and praying for you and Willow. Her life was a gift from God to you and to many of us who shared her story. Animals are sent to teach us unconditional love and you have given her your heart and it must have meant everything to her to be so loved. She has also reminded all of us in cyberspace what love and caring really mean. Thank you for sharing her with us. May you have peace knowing how many hearts you both have touched.

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  155. Crying with you, for you, and believing that that great big beautiful being and spirit that is Willow, sill without a doubt be looking over beautiful you forever... like she was sent to be your angel and you hers, I guess now she needs to be set free to do just that... protect you back and always look on you with the same love you have showed her... that goes on... love goes on and on and on! what a blessing it is you found each other. xxxx ( still crying x)

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  156. I am so very sorry, Shana. She knows she is loved. And she will always be with you. God's peace...

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  157. You are so right, it wasn't supposed to end this way! :-( I have been checking for an update every few hours over the last 2 days and I was so worried. I am so sorry for your loss. Please find comfort in the fact that she WILL be in heaven, running around and having fun- with no more pain or health issues- and watching over you and your family. She knows you love her and you always will. Thank you for the good life you gave her. Your story has really touched me and turned me into a horse lover. I felt I knew Willow and I cared about her so much. Again, I am so sorry for your loss and for your broken heart. :-(

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  158. I am so, so sorry that this has to end this way. :(
    I KNOW there is a heaven for horses, I have 3 of mine there. <3 I know there is nothing that can make this better for you right now, but you sure has done absolutely everything you could have for her. I am sure she knows how much you love her.

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  159. yes, I agree with Lisa.... skip over the negative. We all feel what we do for our animals is the right thing and you are the one that knows Willow the best and will do what is best for her and for your family. I feel your pain.... I have never owned a horse but my dogs mean the world to me and I would be just as devastated if something happened to them and I had to make such a difficult decision. Know that there are a lot of people that feel for you, your family and Willow. Remember you will get through this, as painful as it will be and you will be able to look back and remember an awesome horse with all the good memories that go with Willow. regards Linda Wright

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  160. Rebecca Swingle3/10/13, 11:32 AM

    As I sit here reading, I too am broken for Willow...for you...and truly believe that our four-legged family will be waiting for us in heaven. Willow will be prancing at the gate...snorting with anticipation for the day she will see you again.

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  161. You gave her a gift of unconditional love..to be loved as you loved her was a blessing. She could have died when she was neglected but she lived so you two could take a journey that you will never forget..you both got a gift that a lot of people never have..unconditional love;)

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  162. Of course there is a heaven for horses as there is for my Sadie, 13 year old cocker spaniel, that I had to put down 3 years ago. You will see Willow again. I'm sorry for your loss

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  163. God created all life after it's own kind. That means that Willow was in heaven before she came to be your horse here, and that she will be waiting to still be your horse when you get there. She's just going to be there making sure the stables are ready.

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  164. So sorry for your loss.

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  165. Shana,
    I am so sorry. I just want you to know that I know that all animals have special little spirits and do indeed go to heaven. I know that she will be very happy and will have the best grass to graze and lie on. She will probably even be the queen of all horses. She knows that you love her and she will look over you and your family. I know that you will be able to see her in the next life and that she will be waiting for you to join her there. She will always be with you and I know that you will be able to feel her near often. Again, I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that you and your loved ones will be able to get through this upcoming week and that you will feel Willow by your side nuzzling her nose up against your cheek. She certainly touched you and the lives of others around her when she was alive and now it is time for her to move on, learn and grow even more and to touch the spirits of those who are with her now. She will be working for you and watching you from the other side.
    With much condolences,
    Bonarden Clark

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  166. Oh Shana.. OMG I have no words for you that will make this better.. I am so so sorry.. my thoughts and prayers are with you .. my heart is broken for you and for Willow.. but I promise you she knows you love her and you were just sending her to get better.. she knew she was very much loved.. I could scream at the people who mistreated her.. who didnt love her like they should of.. there are so many of us who would love to own a horse and cannot.. and the people who get to should treat them like you treated Willow and your other horses.. She will always be with you sweet girl.. I am so so so sorry.. sending hugs and love through the miles.. xoxo
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  167. I Believe horses go to Heaven(some may disagree).Willow is new again. It is hard for us..we miss them so very much.Remember her Beauty,Gentleness, Love and Strenghth....she'd want this.
    For the Love of Willow.....

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  168. I am so sorry. I am sitting here crying with you as I read your post. I too cannot believe her story, her life is ending this way. Always remember that she, because of you and your family, died being loved. Something she hadn't felt in a while. Remember the post where you said she would run off the other horse when it would get close to you. YOU were her love as she was yours. Don't ever forget that. I do believe we will see our loved ones in Heaven. All of our loved ones! You and Willow will see each other again. I'm sure of it. She will be in your thoughts and in your heart forever and always.

    Lisa Blatz

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  169. Dearest Shana! I am so sorry for you loss. I have felt deep miracles around you and Willow since I began reading this blog, and through this devastating news I believe they are still there. This beautiful creature found her way to you. Although your time together was brief and challenging she spent the last part of her life wrapped completely in your love. A horse that was loved for her beauty, then neglected and in the end was loved most when she was broken is a testament of true, miraculous love. I know in this deep pain it's hard to see the miracles, but with each word you wrote in this love story we your readers have felt them. We watched as you arrived in her life and despite the problems that most of would have been afraid of, you courageously loved her with all you heart and soul. Willow's life had a happy ending for she was loved and she loved.

    Sending love and thanks to you for sharing an inspiring story of love. I hope in some small way these words bring you comfort. Michelle

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  170. I am so very, very sorry.

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  171. Run like the wind Beautiful Willow

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  172. So heartbreaking:( Praying for you both!xx

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  173. Oh Shana.... I am so sorry :( Have Faith sweet Willow is being held by many loving hands right now, on Earth and in Heaven. God places special beasts such as Willow with small hands of those also taken from Earth too young <3 <3 <3

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  174. Shana, my heart is sad for you and Willow. You two were meant for each other, you have touched and inspired so many through Willow's life story. Thank you for sharing her story, and thank you for opening your heart up for the world to see and share. I feel like I know Willow. You were blessed, Willow was blessed, and I was blessed. God bless, and prayers be sent.

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  175. You did everything within your power to help her, my heart goes out to you. Hugs xxxx

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  176. She WILL be waiting for you on the otherside of the rainbow bridge when you meet again.

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  177. I'm so sorry to hear the very sad news about Willow :( it's so heartbreaking

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  178. As I sit here bawling, I am heartbroken for you and Willow. I am so sorry. You did everything possible and she knew how much she was loved. Sending prayers and love to comfort you during this devastating time...

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  179. Shana, I'm sobbing right now. My heart breaks for you and Willow. For your entire family. She had a few months of happiness with you and honestly I believe no one in the world could have nursed her past her choking issues like you did. She never would have felt beautiful and healthy and loved like that even for such a short time if you hadn't decided to be her caretaker. I'm sure she loves you as much as you love her. She was also surrounded in her last moments by Martha who I'm sure channeled your love and who clearly loved her also. She'll soar to a place where she has no pain and can run, eat, play with those three little braids in her mane. xoxo Lisa C.

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  180. There are no words. I am heartbroken and heartbroken for you. Goodbye Willow

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  181. I am so sorry Shana for the loss of your beautiful Willow. This post brought me to my knees. I believe there are many people crying with you today. This is a beautiful story like you wanted it to be. A story of pure love, courage, determination, hope's and dreams. Willow found love with you and your family. She felt safe and well cared for. You gave her that with all your heart. She was loved by many.

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  182. OMG...My heart goes out to you and Willow. She is an amazingly beautiful animal. Not sure if it gives you any comfort, but I DO BELIEVE THAT THERE IS A HEAVEN FOR ANIMALS! And I truely believe that she knows that you love her, we all do! Our prayers go out to Willow, you and your family. She will be missed greatly!

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  183. Losing any animal is heartbreaking but after all you've been through with WIllow I was hoping for a happy ending. Sad to hear that was not to be.

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  184. Having grown up at a horse farm where we took in the unwanted and the abused, i feel your pain and that wound of mine is reopened after following willows story. I cry for you, for willow and for every horse and animal that knows how it feels to be hurt for no reason by the person that is suppose to love you, i cry for every compassionate human that see that pain and embraces these animals and give them what all animals deserve...LOVE..TRUST..COMPASSION. I am so sorry that this has happened to willow and you my dear. Today I hug my boys( I rescued that would have been killed because they were unwanted at the shelther) a little tighter, kiss them a little longer and tell them how much I love them both a few more times a day then i normally do. I think we all should do these to our family our animals. ....heartbroken...

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  185. Even though I only know you from these pages my heart aches for you. Any one that has lost a family/friend ( because that is what Willow is) how badly you are hurting. I pray that the days will get easier for you and I know that you will see Willow again ( take comfort in that). Remember all the joy that you brought to each other. At this moment I send a hug and a prayer your way.

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  186. This is absolutely heartbreaking news. I have been following her since day one.. crying with tears of joy at her progress and tears of such sadness now. Run free beautiful Willow.

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  187. Oh, Shana. I am so, so sorry. I am praying for you and your family. Thank you for loving Willow, and for allowing your readers to love her, too.

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  188. I cannot even finish reading this through all my tears.

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  189. Oh Shana my dear friend - I am so sorry for you and your family! Willow will be missed terribly. She was so special to you and so many others because you shared her beauty with so many of us. Remember to make her story beautiful. You wrote in your post, "Things are always supposed to end on a good note with horses right, not like this.. not in pain, not in sorrow... I don't want my last memory of her to be her leaving in me a trailer through my tears...". Since it's your love story, you can re-write the ending if you have to in your heart by reminding yourself that while you are terribly sad, she has peace now. She will never suffer an injury, never experience pain. Her story ended with her coming into a loving home with a loving owner and experience a time of joy and love before leaving here. When you start to remember the hard bits at the end, remember all of the good times you had, your special time together. She knows I'm certain how very much you loved her and if she is in heaven, then I'm sure it's perfectly clear to her! God brought you two together and what a blessing that has been for both of you - for us your friends and your memories will keep her with you always. It's so hard to remember when we are in such pain the "gift" that you have when it feels like it's been taken away. But the times you had together were a gift and can never ever be taken from you. If all the time God had planned left for her on earth was the period of time she had from the day she came to you until today and out of all the places she could have gone, been, etc. she was with you - that's amazing and a blessing. It seems like too short of a time to us. I was just weeping yesterday over pregnancies I've lost 9 - 11 year's ago and how short our time together here was but try to remember it was "our time" no matter what that time frame was. It's the same for you guys. I'm sure Willow would have been the first to say: "It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all". I hope she lives on and on in your thoughts. I know for me, she will have a special place in my heart. And on a side note re: Willow's hair. I have read and seen on Etsy I believe, people making bracelets out of their horses hair. You may want to consider having one made for yourself if you haven't already. I believe they are braided bracelets which would be very appropriate for you to remember her and of course the braids you would put in Willow's hair. Please don't hesitate to contact me if you need anything Shana! You know I'm here for you anytime. I will continue to pray for you guys. Lots of love to you and your family! Lisa Renier

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  190. So so sorry Shana.....

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